During a nice visit with one of my close friends I discovered that I am not the only one who's mind wanders...wildly...while folding laundry.
I find that my thoughts will travel the spectrum of my brain.
I will think of people that offended me and what I could have said back to them that may be witty or sharp.
I think of how my family was broken while I was a vulnerable teenager
and
how I could have turned to drinking or promiscuity to settle frayed nerves.
Somehow I stayed strong.
Somehow I stayed strong.
I think of the strong examples I've had in my life and how I would never want to disappoint them.
I think of my many "first" loves...and my one "true" love.
I think of feelings I have experienced...
twitterpated
the tingle of a first kiss
jealously
heart-broken
utterly embarrassed
ashamed
exstatic
loved
comforted
blood boiling anger
simply content
Yes, all this goes through my head as I fold laundry, or wash dishes.
Sometimes my mind goes to places that I have to fight.
I cannot let my mind go to those things that might make me fall.
I cannot hold onto those thoughts that make me resentful.
Thou you cannot erase the memories. They are part of who I am.
They are how I got to this place today...
the good along with the bad.
So, I fold laundry and evaluate my life.
7 comments:
You are not the only one! This happens a lot to me while I am driving by myself (doesn't happen often!)
This is Jeni (Lyle) Everett by the way
HAHA LOL i love you BJ! I do this often too and I love how you explained it on the blog.. You have an effortless way of expressing your thoughts! You are a great person shapped by your circumstances growing up. I am proud to call you a friend!
Wow. What a compliment. Thank you Taylor.
I think as moms we often only have small moments in our days(like folding laundry) where we have time to think and ponder... Most other times our days are full of needs from our children, busyness of cooking/cleaning/shopping etc. I also think as we watch our children we think/hope they might not have to go thru similar struggles as we did, but know it might be harder for them so we wonder what path they might choose and hope we are doing our part to shape them and prepare them! Although I only know you from your blog and going to school with Blake you seem to have it all together, none of us are perfect but we may be the perfect example to someone else :) Have a great weekend
Amen! I totally know what you are talking about. For me it is in the shower. I have the deepest thoughts and what I think of as random inspiration when I'm in the shower. I think it really is the only alone time I get. My kids hate the shower so they leave me alone for at least five minutes or so. :)
You're so good. I fold laundry - (not often enough :) and watch the food network. Maybe I should evaluate more. I'm always so impressed with the choices you and your siblings have made. You're all so strong. Love you b.j! You're a good example to me.
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